lagrimas

mira
a esas
lagrimas
que lloro
cuando te pienso
todos los dias
lloro un rio de agua
y sal y tristeza y amor
porque habia una vez
cuando me amabas y yo te
amaba tambien pero ahora
solamente tengo las lagrimas
que se caen en las mejillas
solamente puedo esperar que
vas a volver a me y entonces
talvez, no voy a llorar
nada mas
-- from "the earlies," 2001b.leigh

being here with you

i'm fading into the gray pinks
of dawn
i'm becoming a part of the
melting dew drops
vanishing with the Morning Star
i'm dissolving like warm sugar
in a cup of spiced tea

we were brought together by chance
love works in funny ways
unexpectedly falling
i was struck by your gray-green
eyes and long eyelashes and
pug nose and thick lips
and smooth chin and
rumbling voice that rolled
your R's and glided words off
your tongue like slik
from first glance i knew it and
i think you knew it too

i'm here with you and i can
finally breathe easy
with every inhale, i take in
some of you
and it warms me like swallowing
amber golden drops of sunshine
you are my sunshine
my only sunshing, you make me happy when skies are gray, you'll never know just how much i love you, oh pleas dont take my sunshine away


- the earlies, 2001

I am not afraid… to admit I was wrong too
I am not afraid… to blame you though
I am not afraid… to look you in the eye
I am not afraid… to ignore your desires
After all you’ve done to me
I’m unbending like a tree
Your actions could never be
The definition of me

But,

I am afraid of letting go again
I am afraid to make a choice
I am afraid of hurting someone in the process
I am afraid to show my weakness
So much for me to learn
The path I walk, I trudge alone
My mistakes I must own
Maybe one day I’ll be grown

See,

I must not be afraid to deserve good things
I must not be afraid to want more
I must not be afraid of forging into the unknown
I must not be afraid of loving again
Life is a bundle of trials
My strength must be inside and out
Each one makes me stronger
My experience becomes my armor

tuesday, november 15 1:19 p.m.

wandering soul

wandering soul
my feet take to the streets
as though distance traveled will solve my worries
youre gone
and i feel it more now than ever before
youre gone forever
the finality is what bites my heart
cuz i realize
that your goodbye means so long
and 'ill call you later' is an empty promise
that i will admittedly try to hold on to
you just dont realize that every word you say
impresses on my mind
they echo at random times
and therefore i carry you everywhere
youre gone
its like i wasnt good enough
like i couldnt smile enough
like my company wasnt intriguing enough
ive been constantly searching
trying to find someone like you
someone who makes me laugh like you did
who makes me write like you did
inspires me to new heights like you did
giving to you was a pleasure
thats why i dont regret a thing i did for you
only the aftermath and given the chance
i wouldnt think twice
before doing it all over
again